There is a problem.
You propose a solution.
You examine the solution carefully
to ensure high probability of success.
Then you implement the solution in a plan.
Then you follow the plan diligently.
Simple as that.
Things will change now.
For even to this day,
I have not unleashed the true power.
Instead, through neglect, exacerbating the inadequacy,
Qualifying magnitude of sucess,
Botching results worked so hard on,
Allowing others to surpass.
And I will succeed.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Of Deleterious Results
Occam's Razor - absent of external information,
one should choose the option with the least number of assumptions
"Those who go aborrowing, go asorrowing" - Roughing it in a Bush
The one ahead in the race "feels" easier?
What if Confederation was not achieved?
What if the world is just slightly cooler?
What if I was still grade 3?
What if I had known?
What if I was mature enough?
What if there is more time?
Stop daydreaming, get on writing that essay!
Exam - 30 mins left!
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In fact, confederation is essentially a pact. Without a pact, it could not live. For humanity sake, unilateral "Act" of any significant effect cannot and does not survive.
That journey is the prize? Define journey: the process, Define prize: the most rewarding, most valuable entity. Journey is the prize then.
To lend or not to lend? That is the question. Humans have developed altruism simply because cooperation in an probabilistic and sufficiently long run is better than selfishness. That does not, however, mean that local abnormalities are overridden. It's not as simple as an operator overload. Even that has problems.
one should choose the option with the least number of assumptions
"Those who go aborrowing, go asorrowing" - Roughing it in a Bush
The one ahead in the race "feels" easier?
What if Confederation was not achieved?
What if the world is just slightly cooler?
What if I was still grade 3?
What if I had known?
What if I was mature enough?
What if there is more time?
Stop daydreaming, get on writing that essay!
Exam - 30 mins left!
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In fact, confederation is essentially a pact. Without a pact, it could not live. For humanity sake, unilateral "Act" of any significant effect cannot and does not survive.
That journey is the prize? Define journey: the process, Define prize: the most rewarding, most valuable entity. Journey is the prize then.
To lend or not to lend? That is the question. Humans have developed altruism simply because cooperation in an probabilistic and sufficiently long run is better than selfishness. That does not, however, mean that local abnormalities are overridden. It's not as simple as an operator overload. Even that has problems.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Exchange
From: me
To: <The Old Coalition>
Subject: In response to various inquiries.
Mailed-by: gmail.com
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Heh so Victor slipped away from his high standards? How COULD he...
I'm sure the short stories aren't that hard though. Support your BS-ed theme/blah with quotes and voila, you pass.
But I guess it's the kind of things that either you get it or you don't.
New boarders? Yes I've heard about them (not from you). Don't know much though, but apparently aren't too good.
Math is always easy for me. I can sleep through all classes and get close to perfect. It's not like I'm learning anything new.
Even Math 12 is nothing new really; you slowly learn everything over time, and when you get in, you already know it all.
As for here... there aren't really much going on though.
English is definitely different - nothing could beat Ms. Fraser's rants. I actually somehow miss those. Here it just simply expects you to know everything. But then we are reading "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime" again in 2nd term. There are also some random useless grammar practices - I'm sure I don't need that, but if it gets me more marks, then why not?
Science: chem 10 is simple, really.
Socials - like we never really learn anything in class and are supposed to learn everything ourselves from the textbook, and random quizzes pop up where the teacher never talked about the material. There are also annoying long historical documents and essays to read. It's easy though, just do the work and 100% comes.
Math... it's easy. However, the math teachers here are either incompetent or hostile to me. The ones that are nice, can't do anything. The ones that are good (ie BC calc teacher) refuses to answer or give advice on my questions, like I'm intruding their life or something.
I'm also taking Japanese, which is really easy, since you practically learn nothing. I'm taking AP Computer Science. It's easy for me anyways. And at last there is PE. It's easier to get marks though, or as far as I can tell.
There is also other annoyances around here.
The desk in my boarding room, for example, is so small that you can't put anything else beside a desk lamp and a laptop.
The laundry service is awful - some commercial place that produces weird-smelling clothes - and you don't have access to laundry machines inside the house, and worst of all, it takes 2-3 days. They also hire cleaning staff to wash your bed sheets and clean your room for you. Sounds a lot like baby-sitting. Even then my roommate's stuff generates smell (or his armpit stench when he comes back from whatever sports he was doing) and I end up having to deal with it.
For prep, there aren't any libraries or computer labs to go to - you have to stay in your room working on that minuscule desk with a bunch of people distracting you, say from next door. AND we have house meetings every single day, wasting our time. The house parents are not as nice, don't care about anything, and ruthlessly screw people around.
The people here... *sigh* too many Chinese around. The house is full of them - rich Chinese kids - some of them are nice, but some of them racist towards Taiwanese. In whatever situation, I refuse to allow erosion of my nationality. Plus I hate Beijing accent. There is also some annoying white kids.
As a result of all these, I go home every weekend. Guess what? Nobody is every at home either. It's a hassle. And to conserve my financial budget, I cook every single meal. I also do all my laundry as I've always done before. PLUS I have home management responsibilities.
The school building is also convoluted as well. They try to cram everything - gym, swimming pool, 30 or so classrooms, office, cafeteria - into a single place. As a result, it's a great maze that is time consuming to move around, especially if your locker is on one end and the cafeteria is on the other. Also you have to wear blazers 3 days a week and have stupid long assemblies.
That's enough complaining. There is plenty more problems around, plus that it's a school full of boys and only boys.
I guess it's training. Every time I get used to one place, I am pulled out and unwillingly switched into another. Since the start of the year, almost every plan has been failing, despite giving 2x necessary time. I just want to rest and not having to be forced to do A, B, C, D, E, and get frustrated when failing to have enough motivation to do them. THIS challenge is the ONLY advantage I could think of for moving to St. George's, which otherwise is a totally useless, time-wasting decision (btw, previous family conditions don't apply - they've changed).
To: <The Old Coalition>
Subject: In response to various inquiries.
Mailed-by: gmail.com
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Heh so Victor slipped away from his high standards? How COULD he...
I'm sure the short stories aren't that hard though. Support your BS-ed theme/blah with quotes and voila, you pass.
But I guess it's the kind of things that either you get it or you don't.
New boarders? Yes I've heard about them (not from you). Don't know much though, but apparently aren't too good.
Math is always easy for me. I can sleep through all classes and get close to perfect. It's not like I'm learning anything new.
Even Math 12 is nothing new really; you slowly learn everything over time, and when you get in, you already know it all.
As for here... there aren't really much going on though.
English is definitely different - nothing could beat Ms. Fraser's rants. I actually somehow miss those. Here it just simply expects you to know everything. But then we are reading "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime" again in 2nd term. There are also some random useless grammar practices - I'm sure I don't need that, but if it gets me more marks, then why not?
Science: chem 10 is simple, really.
Socials - like we never really learn anything in class and are supposed to learn everything ourselves from the textbook, and random quizzes pop up where the teacher never talked about the material. There are also annoying long historical documents and essays to read. It's easy though, just do the work and 100% comes.
Math... it's easy. However, the math teachers here are either incompetent or hostile to me. The ones that are nice, can't do anything. The ones that are good (ie BC calc teacher) refuses to answer or give advice on my questions, like I'm intruding their life or something.
I'm also taking Japanese, which is really easy, since you practically learn nothing. I'm taking AP Computer Science. It's easy for me anyways. And at last there is PE. It's easier to get marks though, or as far as I can tell.
There is also other annoyances around here.
The desk in my boarding room, for example, is so small that you can't put anything else beside a desk lamp and a laptop.
The laundry service is awful - some commercial place that produces weird-smelling clothes - and you don't have access to laundry machines inside the house, and worst of all, it takes 2-3 days. They also hire cleaning staff to wash your bed sheets and clean your room for you. Sounds a lot like baby-sitting. Even then my roommate's stuff generates smell (or his armpit stench when he comes back from whatever sports he was doing) and I end up having to deal with it.
For prep, there aren't any libraries or computer labs to go to - you have to stay in your room working on that minuscule desk with a bunch of people distracting you, say from next door. AND we have house meetings every single day, wasting our time. The house parents are not as nice, don't care about anything, and ruthlessly screw people around.
The people here... *sigh* too many Chinese around. The house is full of them - rich Chinese kids - some of them are nice, but some of them racist towards Taiwanese. In whatever situation, I refuse to allow erosion of my nationality. Plus I hate Beijing accent. There is also some annoying white kids.
As a result of all these, I go home every weekend. Guess what? Nobody is every at home either. It's a hassle. And to conserve my financial budget, I cook every single meal. I also do all my laundry as I've always done before. PLUS I have home management responsibilities.
The school building is also convoluted as well. They try to cram everything - gym, swimming pool, 30 or so classrooms, office, cafeteria - into a single place. As a result, it's a great maze that is time consuming to move around, especially if your locker is on one end and the cafeteria is on the other. Also you have to wear blazers 3 days a week and have stupid long assemblies.
That's enough complaining. There is plenty more problems around, plus that it's a school full of boys and only boys.
I guess it's training. Every time I get used to one place, I am pulled out and unwillingly switched into another. Since the start of the year, almost every plan has been failing, despite giving 2x necessary time. I just want to rest and not having to be forced to do A, B, C, D, E, and get frustrated when failing to have enough motivation to do them. THIS challenge is the ONLY advantage I could think of for moving to St. George's, which otherwise is a totally useless, time-wasting decision (btw, previous family conditions don't apply - they've changed).
Friday, October 30, 2009
Continuous Everywhere, Differentiable Nowhere
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It's been a while, or it seems like a while.
In fact, time seems to pass by rather quickly.
One month of experiment puts everything back to the drawing board.
No, sir. The fundamental problem so loathed by all of us still exists, under the abyssal weight of various masks, responsibilities, attempts of burial, and the worst of all - the sheer complexity.
For far too long, the regimen proved unsuccessful. There was no purpose, no motivation, and no action. Or rather, arbitrary plans that does not seem to go anywhere. It was changing everyday, failing in every conceivable way, and crippled to the point of sheer inefficiency. Events happen at a speed such that it is impossible to discern the problems without begetting new problems through the delays, until now.
Now, to put aside the attempts of burial, dig up all the skeletons, analyze, and clear the blockade ahead.
Happy Halloween.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Of Catchers and Butterflies
"... I didn't care though ... I felt so damn happy,
if you want to know the truth. I don't know why..."
- The Catcher in the Rye, p213
"It's called the butterfly effect.
You step on a few butterflies,
and some time later, people die."
- Angela Petrelli (in Heroes)
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You see, there is a problem with this situation. We think we are going in the right decision. We think we are masters of ourselves. How so? Is there such thing as "Free Will?" What have I done over the years?
Look, here is me, a person that devotes to knowledge, math, and computers. A person that participates in no sports team because of not competent enough, which is due to lack of perseverance. A person that is socially inclined. Outcast. Defend vehemently against the superficial. A person, not even participating in any community service. What have I done?
There is always people around you that at least attempt to push you, help you, but I am just too ignorant to realize that fact. Is it planned? Am I destined this way anyways? Is it that I have just not enough free will to shape my day? There must be a reason why so many people are ignorant, moving on with life without knowing what lies ahead. There must be a reason why I stand here today. Rationality. Pursue of knowledge. The right path or the pitfall? For the very least there is something missing.
Why am I alone, feeling need of companionship? For these years why never has anything come? Some do come close, then go away. I rely on myself. Is myself reliable? Am I stepping on too many butterflies that I don't even know of?
Why so many people have a niche in sports? Community service? Clubs? Why not me? People stand up to do stuff. I should stand up as well. Problem is I don't have the ability. Is it truely too late? Me, 15 years old, too late? That's BS. Is this the problem? That I delve too much into my stuff that I alienated other important aspects and ability? That the achievements of other people in these area are slowly corroding away my fortress in this world? That I begin to shrink in importance and the fundamental layer I hold has begun to be attacked? If so then I need defense. I need to fight back. NOW.
There is still time.
if you want to know the truth. I don't know why..."
- The Catcher in the Rye, p213
"It's called the butterfly effect.
You step on a few butterflies,
and some time later, people die."
- Angela Petrelli (in Heroes)
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You see, there is a problem with this situation. We think we are going in the right decision. We think we are masters of ourselves. How so? Is there such thing as "Free Will?" What have I done over the years?
Look, here is me, a person that devotes to knowledge, math, and computers. A person that participates in no sports team because of not competent enough, which is due to lack of perseverance. A person that is socially inclined. Outcast. Defend vehemently against the superficial. A person, not even participating in any community service. What have I done?
There is always people around you that at least attempt to push you, help you, but I am just too ignorant to realize that fact. Is it planned? Am I destined this way anyways? Is it that I have just not enough free will to shape my day? There must be a reason why so many people are ignorant, moving on with life without knowing what lies ahead. There must be a reason why I stand here today. Rationality. Pursue of knowledge. The right path or the pitfall? For the very least there is something missing.
Why am I alone, feeling need of companionship? For these years why never has anything come? Some do come close, then go away. I rely on myself. Is myself reliable? Am I stepping on too many butterflies that I don't even know of?
Why so many people have a niche in sports? Community service? Clubs? Why not me? People stand up to do stuff. I should stand up as well. Problem is I don't have the ability. Is it truely too late? Me, 15 years old, too late? That's BS. Is this the problem? That I delve too much into my stuff that I alienated other important aspects and ability? That the achievements of other people in these area are slowly corroding away my fortress in this world? That I begin to shrink in importance and the fundamental layer I hold has begun to be attacked? If so then I need defense. I need to fight back. NOW.
There is still time.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
再見了阿扁
「陳水扁、吳淑珍被判無期徒刑、褫奪公權終身，加起來的罰金高達五億元。 扁家4大案11日一審宣判，前總統陳水扁集六罪於一身重判無期徒刑，併科罰金2億元，禠奪公權終身」
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悲哀阿
別人 ( 國民黨上下 ) 拿那麼多錢沒事
不代表你只拿一點不會有事 !
你可是民進黨的阿
公權力在的時候國民黨不敢查
是因為你可以去挖他們的骷髏頭
用各種以前的種種案件抓他們
現在在國民黨開的法院裡面
你可不受保護阿
當然並不是完全都是扁的錯
很多時候錢是非得要拿得
三個人去殺人
你是最後一個拿刀的
你可以自命清高不跟著捅一刀嗎
你如果那樣的話，其他人絕對讓你不好過 !
貪污也是一樣阿
你如果不拿一點的話
人家會想盡辦法讓你不好過阿
人家都拿那麼多，改天被你抓怎麼辦 !
國民黨很聰明
控制了一堆媒體煽動人民
騙取選票
利用各種方法掩蓋馬英九的不是
告陳水扁告那麼久所以人家不會注意到馬的無能
想辦法高鐵、高捷雞蛋裡挑骨頭
弄黑民進黨
誰知道年輕的一代不懂歷史
不懂得以前各式各樣種種案件
全都被騙了 !
想想看
扁被判無期徒刑
還被罰那麼多錢
難道只是單純的法院審判嗎
難道不是因為國民黨自有的 agenda ?
民進黨趕快回來阿
台灣不能給國民黨做阿
台灣、中國是一邊一國 !
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悲哀阿
別人 ( 國民黨上下 ) 拿那麼多錢沒事
不代表你只拿一點不會有事 !
你可是民進黨的阿
公權力在的時候國民黨不敢查
是因為你可以去挖他們的骷髏頭
用各種以前的種種案件抓他們
現在在國民黨開的法院裡面
你可不受保護阿
當然並不是完全都是扁的錯
很多時候錢是非得要拿得
三個人去殺人
你是最後一個拿刀的
你可以自命清高不跟著捅一刀嗎
你如果那樣的話，其他人絕對讓你不好過 !
貪污也是一樣阿
你如果不拿一點的話
人家會想盡辦法讓你不好過阿
人家都拿那麼多，改天被你抓怎麼辦 !
國民黨很聰明
控制了一堆媒體煽動人民
騙取選票
利用各種方法掩蓋馬英九的不是
告陳水扁告那麼久所以人家不會注意到馬的無能
想辦法高鐵、高捷雞蛋裡挑骨頭
弄黑民進黨
誰知道年輕的一代不懂歷史
不懂得以前各式各樣種種案件
全都被騙了 !
想想看
扁被判無期徒刑
還被罰那麼多錢
難道只是單純的法院審判嗎
難道不是因為國民黨自有的 agenda ?
民進黨趕快回來阿
台灣不能給國民黨做阿
台灣、中國是一邊一國 !
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Objectivity, Subjectivity
For far too many issues in the world, there is considerable opinion and subjectivity involved. In these topics, every article, every speech, every book, no matter how objective it appears to be, is vulnerable to subjectivity. Because either side of the argument has substantial stance, the general public is susceptible to being easily swayed to frantically supporting a cause that is actually not substantiated as well as the opposite cause.
I am no different. This is like a modified version of a tug-o-war representing your opinion on the spectrum. Basically in the beginning, the first person to pull the rope (ie the first article/influence on the topic) pulls it the farthest. Then, as more and more people joins the war (ie as you read more, hear more - especially on both sides), the situation stabilizes. However, there is rarely a neutral position, not because necessarily one side is better (although that could be the case), but because summing up the knowledge acquired so far, the argument is more weighted towards one side - and this is also heavily skewed about the reading sequence.
For far too many times I surrendered to a compelling argument because of lack of knowledge to rebut. However, I do absolutely nothing to remedy or to learn save from admitting lost; in fact the reluctance to change (inertia) is so strong that I am standing on pretty much the same side as I did since I first hear about the issue unless glaringly bad holes surfaces. The problem is that I do not learn and read more; I simply do nothing about it and let it slip by.
It is not true that I do not read; in fact I do read - a lot. I am basically consumed in the thirst of knowledge that I cannot pull myself out of. This seems strange as most people cares lots more about other things - and yet my analytical skills are not better? I do believe that one should stand on a position - and firm - after extensive ongoing research because if one continues to be neutral (or really: oblivious) then one can never make a decision in life.
Why is there such a confusion? Why is there such uncertainty? Maybe I am keeping all this inside my head for far too long? I can satisfy my thirst for knowledge and understanding the world, but that would not be enough since I would spend all my time pondering around the fragments of memory and constantly skewing information. There is a need for other people. First step is understanding, second step is discussing - by pulling on more brain powers to collaboratively analyze the issue. I sincerely hope to understand the world more and be happier. Ignorance is not bliss because ignorance is impractical.
I am no different. This is like a modified version of a tug-o-war representing your opinion on the spectrum. Basically in the beginning, the first person to pull the rope (ie the first article/influence on the topic) pulls it the farthest. Then, as more and more people joins the war (ie as you read more, hear more - especially on both sides), the situation stabilizes. However, there is rarely a neutral position, not because necessarily one side is better (although that could be the case), but because summing up the knowledge acquired so far, the argument is more weighted towards one side - and this is also heavily skewed about the reading sequence.
For far too many times I surrendered to a compelling argument because of lack of knowledge to rebut. However, I do absolutely nothing to remedy or to learn save from admitting lost; in fact the reluctance to change (inertia) is so strong that I am standing on pretty much the same side as I did since I first hear about the issue unless glaringly bad holes surfaces. The problem is that I do not learn and read more; I simply do nothing about it and let it slip by.
It is not true that I do not read; in fact I do read - a lot. I am basically consumed in the thirst of knowledge that I cannot pull myself out of. This seems strange as most people cares lots more about other things - and yet my analytical skills are not better? I do believe that one should stand on a position - and firm - after extensive ongoing research because if one continues to be neutral (or really: oblivious) then one can never make a decision in life.
Why is there such a confusion? Why is there such uncertainty? Maybe I am keeping all this inside my head for far too long? I can satisfy my thirst for knowledge and understanding the world, but that would not be enough since I would spend all my time pondering around the fragments of memory and constantly skewing information. There is a need for other people. First step is understanding, second step is discussing - by pulling on more brain powers to collaboratively analyze the issue. I sincerely hope to understand the world more and be happier. Ignorance is not bliss because ignorance is impractical.
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